Feeling Blessed...

Alhamdulillah...I feel great today as I discovered myself better a little than what I know before. I am so thankful that Allah grants me with great things and great people in life. I am also very thankful that all my efforts are paid off. I know...I know...it has been just over 2 weeks but even so I could already tell and feel the difference.

Right now I am a freak in health and wellness. Why? Because I badly want to get healthier and live better. Why? Because of my 5 loved ones - my hubby and my children. Every time I picture them in my mind, in my eyes, I just know it that I owe them this. 

I am pleased with the changes so far. No more guilty feelings. I am consciously choosing what goes into my body. I am very selective and I am glad that this change comes before it is too late to embrace any changes. 

The numbers on the scale is showing improvements. In fact I get excited getting on the scale now as I am anxious to see how I am progressing. It used to be such a painful dreadful moment. My HR reading is also better. It rests at lower beats now. I am glad so glad. Thankful very thankful. Alhamdulillah. 

All these motivates me to strive further. I can somehow see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just know that this time I am not going to fail.

O Allah, give me strength to continue fighting. Only You are where I place all my hopes and wishes. Aamiin...

I was shock!!!

It was 2 April when I took the test. It couldn't be April Fools because that is only valid on 1st of April every year. But yes, it felt like it. It really felt like April Fools. 

There is no use denying the fact as it would be there no matter how much I wanted to ignore it. The numbers aren't good. It would not get better if I don't take any drastic actions now. 

I walked slowly to my car. I drove aimlessly to my daughter's school. I took her out for lunch but I couldn't swallow anything down my throat. I kept thinking that every single thing that goes into my tummy would just trigger the numbers even more. 

That night I decided I am in control of this. I can do something about it. The key is in my hands. Take ownership Intan...If you don't, who will?

So, April 2nd 2014 is another turning point in my life. Hopefully, this would actually change my life....and this time for good, insha'Allah. 

Ya Allah, please give me strength to do this for You, for myself and my family, Aamiin.

For my hubby, I am sorry for ignoring your "warnings". Shit happens at anytime I do that, B. 

For my jewels - Along, Angah, Achik and Adek - Ummi promise to MAKE IT HAPPEN this time. 

You guys deserve a better me. For sure.

Thank you Allah for letting me "get it" before it's too late. Alhamdulillah. Subhanallah.